Time for me to hit the RESET button

I've been thinking about the people around me for quite some time. Whether they are loyal to me because they are comfortable being friends with me or are they sticking around so that they can dig in the negative stuff that I say or do and spread the news to others? I wonder...Just give me a small piece of paper to list down the names that I trust and cherish as a friend.

Yes, they are not many.I remember back in the school days, in my old high school in section 2 Shah Alam..

I had a couple of friends that I hung out during recess. At times a few of them would go to me and say "Ainie boleh tak pinjam (a certain amount of money)?"

At times it would be RM4 or RM5... or a few cents..

I was cool with people borrowing things.

Nak pinjam ape cakap je, dengan ikhlas n bermurah hati I akan bagi.

Tapi yang mane yang I bole bagi la. But then it got over the line.. Biasenye it’s a money.

The word pinjam.. never meant = to borrow and to return back. I never got the money back and I'm not sure what is the total..

Ok I don't want to go pointing fingers cause i'm not sure whether they don't remember that they borrowed the money or... worse, whether they 'pow-ed' me. I'm not familiar with the 'pow' term. But people once told me that it was a trend for these so called hot shots to take money from another and not returning it back.

It was part of their satisfaction as though they were bigger than the rest.

After being a complete dunce, I decided to become stingy.. and selective.

Hmmp Tak percaya dah.

So that's the type of friends who are just with me for the sake of borrowing my money..

Next type is the ones that only

text me when they have an important question to ask..

Oh trust me.. I'm famous during exams or when there are projects to pass up.

I'm cool with the ones that I do strike conversations now and then.. but for the ones that I hardly even talk to then suddenly they come knocking on my door for help, is really weird.. Of course,

I do help them and yes, dengan tulus ikhlas.. But it's just weird that they appear and then disappear.. and when the season comes again, they'll reappear and *poof* vanish.

I wonder if I hit the reset button, how many people will still be loyal to me?